All My Broken Heartbeats,, Dedications

Video here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIqdiY…

First dedication, to the person who truly inspired the video itself: (copied+pasted from description//made it too long)
This is dedicated more specifically to one special person who has done more than he could ever imagine for me. He has changed me, and literally been able to make me smile, even if I had been sobbing three seconds before talking to him. He's made everything, literally /everything/ better for me, especially during all this nonsense and confusion with this friend of mine, and despite what this has…done to me, and how I'm different because of this situation that still affects me, more than a year later…there aren't words for my gratitude. He's kept me sane, he has been there for me, whenever I needed support, and he's been the only constant, the only person who didn't change because of what she's done to me. And…even though my feelings for him have changed from what they originally were, and even if he never felt the same about me, I'm so happy with this. This makes me feel safe, and confident, and like I'm worth something, like someone out there really cares about me and whether I'm happy or not. Someone who fights for me, when I don't think I could even fight for myself. I don't want this to change. But I needed to somehow express all of that, and it came out in this video. It feels good to make a video, for me, about me, that actually makes me happy. Heaven only knows that the videos "for" me that I've made lately…they all just make me sad. So…I guess this is a thank you. He might see this, and he might not. But somebody should know how grateful I am for this friendship, and whatever else becomes of it.

Rest of the dedications:

Firstly, the my dear friends from GoodReads; more specifically, the Complaint Box.
--You guys...you don't even know. I came into the group, spilling my guts about the whole you-know-who situation, and I just like, burst into your friendships and popped into every topic without warning or any real explanation whatsoever, and you guys just...you welcomed me, and you accepted me, and you all did everything you could to help me. I feel like I'm part of your little family now, and I feel so safe and secure talking to all of you, because you understand. You get what all of this feels like, and when I was scared and didn't feel good enough, you told me that I wasn't alone, and that it would get better. That I was strong, and I just had to keep fighting, and you'd be there to help me. You gave me advice when I needed it, and I just pray that someday, I can somehow repay all of that kindness and you guys will somehow understand what your love and your friendships and all your kindness has truly done for me. You guys have saved me, and I'll never be able to express how thankful I am for that.

--BlackLolitarose
Rose, Rose, Rose! I know I don't talk to you as much as I should. But oh my dear, you are so completely sweet. You always know how to make me smile, and you always let me know that someone cares about me, and even if nobody else in the world did, you remind me that God cares about me. The video you gave me last year for my birthday still brings tears to my eyes, and you're just...so thoughtful and sweet, that there aren't words to describe how grateful I am to you. You remind me that the things I do have an effect on people, and that my actions matter. I'm so thankful to you for showing me that and for keeping me going with your sweet comments and thoughtful words.

MarcFirewing
--kjruwenmksvkrrjksevt kj. Okay, firstly, I am sorry that AMVMA is totally tanking. I know, I am the worst leader ever. D: But, I'm thankful for that studio for bringing us together as friends. I still remember the first time I ever talked to you; oh my goodness, I was so nervous, hahah. But I really had no reason to be; you ended up being one of my closest friends, the first YT friend I ever added on Facebook; heck, you even know and talk to my IRL friends! Still wish I'd been able to see you when I was in Disneyland in April, but oh well. Our late night text conversations, and random Facebook conversations always manage to make me happy; you really are this great combination of sweet and sarcastic, hahah. I'm so grateful to have you in my life.

00sussie00
--Suuuuuuu!!!! *insert another keyboard smash* Holy crappppp, first, I just want to say that THE PHANTOM VIDEO YOU MADE MADE ME CRY LIKE A LITTLE GIRL. I mean, Phantom always makes me cry, but when your video made me cry because it was gorgeous, and it was Phantom, and it was sad, and THEN I read your description, I had CRIED SOME MORE. A LOT MORE. You are so wonderful, and you, and Kelly and I are the Three Musketeers, fo sho, and I'm so completely lucky to have you. You're loyal, and sweet, and you manage to make me laugh every time I talk to you! I'm also so glad to have you on our game project, and your modelling is BEAUTIFUL! It's nice to have a close friend there, and hopefully we'll come out having made something really really cool! Here's to almost two years!

TheLuau
--Oh my, Debbie. This one might be a little long. You...no, there really aren't any words. You were...You are...Heaven sakes, I don't even know how to start. You were the first person who was there for me when this whole...you-know-who friendship thing started. You were the first person to listen to me about it, and you let me explain the entire thing, starting from the beginning five years ago, to now. You were the first person I ever wrote, the first friend who my parents actually trusted with our address *le gasp!*, and I'm sorry it's taken me so long to finish my letter to you. Whenever I write something, it sounds stupid, and I start over...But I'll get your Christmas gift sent soon, I promise. I'm so freaking grateful to you. You were the first friend who ever told me a song reminded you of me (even now, whenever I listen to "Wonderwall", I cry, hahah), you always respond whenever I need to ramble, or something has gone wrong, and you always remind me that I have a special place in your heart. You're one of the few close friends I have who believe in God, and that alone means the world to me; I feel like you're just...the angel or something who I desperately needed, and the little things you do, by posting on my Facebook wall with sweet quotes, or just being nice to me at all; all of it has a reason, and I'm so glad that I have you. It's like...our friendship skipped that whole "getting to know you" sort of thing, and we got to know each other by learning the really deep stuff first. There will never be words enough to explain how much I love you, and how much you've changed me and helped me. You've definitely been the most supportive and most "there" through this you-know-who situation, and you're the one I've relied on all this time to keep me stable. Thank you so very, very much, and I love you dearly.

LostmySister
--Carola, my dear. Remember when we started emailing? When I lost my original email address to that hacker, yours were the only emails I made sure got saved. I forwarded them all to my new email, so I wouldn't lose a single one. Even though I couldn't write you real letters yet, we had to those emails, and I love rereading them. I keep thinking I need to write you again, and I'll be able to now that Christmas break has started here. Also, thanks so much for being my editor. Because of you, I'm actually making progress on my stories, especially The Elementals. Another thank-you for letting me know that it looked like I was setting up Aden and Reneda, hahaha. x) I'm so glad to have you, since you were one of my first really close friends. And do you remember, a couple of years ago; lots of things were going on with my back, and I was going to have to get bone scans and more x-rays and stuff, and I was totally terrified...but before I went in, I got an email from you, saying I'd be okay, and that just calmed me down so much. I don't think I ever gave a proper thank-you for that. So thanks.

StrawberryWings
--Roxas. I know we don't talk to each other all that much, but you're just...you're so close and dear to me, and I'm thankful for the times that we do talk. I'm sad you're not able to be online as much, but I'm glad that I have you, and you are definitely my longest-running close friend. I met you just after I joined YouTube! You made me feel welcome and glad to be an editor, and you helped me grow and learn more than I could have on my own. I hope to talk to you lots more soon, and I pray that things are looking up for you from the last time we spoke. I love you, my friend.

Kelly
--Yeah, I don't even need to type your username, hahah. You know you. I still find it astounding that it seems we have so few things in common, editing-wise; you do live action, I do games; it doesn't seem like we'd be as close as we are. But we are clooose, and I miss you so freaking much! Ever since you went off to college, it feels like we don't talk as much as we used to, and I really miss you. I hope to talk to you lots more soon, especially since you'll be home for the holidays. You're the only friend I have who's willing to record themself and send me videos to just cheer me up, hahah. Or laugh at me when they send me something "scary" and I just end up falling off my chair laughing instead, hahaha. Or make me take a video of my reaction to see what I did! Goodness, you're the best! We always have the best conversations, and I love when you and I get going on IM and talk for HOURS about everything and nothing. Anything from JGL to Kaname vs. Zero. (; I'm going to get your package sent as soon as I am able and cross my fingers it gets to you by Christmas! I hope you've had an amazing time at college so far, and that it's everything you wanted it to be! I love you sooo much.

xxFloodEdge
--Nat, wowwww. I don't even know where to start. First, we have just about the best conversations ever. I mean, literally, there is no one else on planet earth who will sit there and write me a seven-comment long response because YT doesn't let you post more than 1000 characters per comment, hahah. And then have a conversation with me about the number of comments posted, and why it's a lucky number. Or take the time to explain roleplay/character stuff to me or Latin or just about everything else that I don't understand, which is a lot, hahah. You always manage to make me laugh, no matter what else is happening, and I'm very grateful that the leader of Zodiac Studios brought you in, and misspelled your username, and that we had that first conversation; because maybe if I had never called you ZZ and had to have been corrected, we never would have become friends; and I can't even imagine life without you now! And even though you always make me laugh, you also make me feel like I'm important in some way, like remembering that I don't drink tea, or the names of my other best friends. You're just really sweet, and I appreciate that. And when you reblogged my post on tumblr, when I was just upset and basically cursing life, you brought me back and reminded me that I have friends who care, and all the things you said then were all the things I needed to hear. So thank you. Words won't express how grateful I am, for that alone.

yuukix9
--Lauren. Lauren. Lauren. I still remember the first thing we ever talked about. I'm pretty sure it had something to do with how you wanted to cosplay songstress Yuna, and how your mom might not let you. And when you were upset, I wanted to be right there for you, trying to help you through. When you're sad, I'm sad; and when you're happy, I'm happy, too. And I'm still upset that the video I made for you didn't work out, "Me Without You"'; but I'm glad you got to see what did render, and when I hear that song, it still reminds me of you. You've always believed in me, and you're always there for me when I need you, despite how long it's been since we've really talked, and I always know that you're by my side, even though you're half a world away. I care about you and love you so much, and I don't want you to ever forget that.

diinodoll
--Christyyyyy~ I feel like it's been so long since we've talked! I love you so much, my dear. I miss talking to you, too! I'll have to send you a message on facebook or something very soon! (: You're such a beautiful person, and I'm so terribly happy to have you as a friend. You've been caring and confident in me, and you're so incredibly talented and wonderful in every single way. I love you and adore you, and I hope that we can talk lots more really soon, because I miss you, my dear! I miss you tons and tons.

BlazedSilsjktrhnjkyk
--Yeah, no, I don't know how to spell it. XD But DARREL. You are like, the coolest non-little brother that I've ever had EVER. I could split a seam laughing when I have conversations with you, and you make like, the greatest videos ever. Basically everything you make is in my favorites~ yeppp. I still can't believe that I was there for your thirteenth birthday. You make me feel so oldddd! D: kjerhyurnjwbtr. Again, grateful to AMVMA, because PARTY IN THE MIAMI CAVE, LIKE A BOSS. It's been like, three years, and that joke is STILL FUNNY. IT SHALL NEVER DIE. Now all we have left to do is become adults, move to Miami, and buy a cave. And then we'll invite Marc, and Lau, and Paige, and Lauren, and EVERYBODY INTO OUR CAVE AND WE WILL ROCK OUT. You're the best non-little brother ever and I adore you.

BlehxIshxMe
--Laurin. You are so very sweet. I feel like we've gotten much closer lately, and when I first rant-posted here about my friend situation, you were so supportive and I don't know if you ever realized how much I appreciated your comment. I probably talk to you the most on facebook, and you're always so helpful and just plain nice! You're amazing and I'm so glad to know you and to be friends with you. (: Hopefully we'll just get closer from here, because I adore talking to you and being friends with you. I love you!

There are probably about a billion more people I need to talk to, and I'm so grateful to all the friends that I've had here in this online universe. There are just some of those who have made an impact in my life. Thank you all so very much.